We had just spent 5 beautifully exhausting joyful days at Walt Disney World in Orlando. Our luggage was packed with all of our remembrances of the sweet time spent as a family, and we had taken the Magical Disney Express bus to the airport. After going through security, we were sitting in an open rotunda area with Starbucks in our hands when melancholy began to creep in.
We were heading back to reality - the place where issues are unresolved and plans are unfinished. The reality where the purpose of my life seems so small, undetermined, and insignificant. And through the course of the day of travel and returning home to responsibilities, I became despondent, distant, and I started consuming any type of food and quantity of food that I thought would give me some measure of joy.
Before the trip God planted me firmly in the book of Romans. I had begun handwriting scriptures within the chapters that spoke to be about grace. So being overcome at the end of the day by the choices I had made, I starting writing the scriptures out again - seeking to find peace. Fighting through the chaos that was my mind and soul, His word began to work out the wrong thinking.
A few days later, God gave me a shield against this enemy of my soul - the enemy that comes in my thoughts. Although beneficial for all, I believe that this truth, this shield, is especially necessary for those that suffer with or have suffered with any form of depression.
Let’s start off with Romans 6:11(because this is where the Holy Spirit started with me, and as Graham Cooke would say – “Holy Spirit’s a genius”, so it’s a good place to start.):
So you also must consider yourselves dead to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus.
Dead to sin – I must consider myself dead to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus.
Then Holy Spirit reminded me of Philippians 4:8:
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Whatever is true, noble, pure, lovely, admirable, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - these are Jesus’ thoughts, so anything outside of these thoughts I must consider myself dead to. The thoughts I was had waiting in the airport rotunda, I should have considered myself dead to them.
Romans 14:7 For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.
The feelings of melancholy I had on the way back from Orlando, I should have considered myself dead to them, for Jesus’s feelings are peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.
I put this revelation into action day 5 of being back at home. Having woken up late in the morning and feeling exhausted, my soul was saying this sucks. As soon as I started to think it, I said within myself, no I consider myself dead to sin. And I refused to allow myself to meditate on the thoughts that I had no energy, my body hurt, and I certainly didn’t want to help my son or be the wife that I am. I chose to ask God to help me with additional energy. The effort I put into these steps wasn’t massive, but they caused a significant shift in my day. By using my will against the spin that the enemy wanted to put on the circumstances around me, I received a day that was full and that I was completely present in.
This gives me courage to continue to say that I am dead to everything that isn’t what and who God says that I am or isn’t what and who God says that He is. For by saying no to the life draining thoughts of the enemy, I can say yes to life, and life more abundantly